Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Last sunday (17th Sep), I've received news from mom that the old folks home wanna invite us to perform on 1oct - moon cake festival....
indeed i was happy => finally aft so many mths of waiting....
but then....happiness was short-lived....& indeed very short almost like 1 sec...
coz....SHINE...is only 4 person now....& every1 seem very bz wif their sch work, cca & exams....the probability of them agreeing to this invitation is almost as low as zero....
but then i still gave it a try.....
& i was right...
the immediate reply that Yee gave me was....
"I'm sorry, i think i wont be able to make it coz of my 'N' levels"
i understand...totally....coz last time i really had to juggle with my 'O' levels and the many performance & pracs....i dun want her to go thru the torture...i could understand that...i didnt blame her or anything....i juz replied...it's ok => i understand =>
but then later that day...Yee msg me again...this time...a GOOD news that drew a grin in my face! she told me that she'll join!!
I was smiling from ear to ear =>
but then...i was very very afraid that she couldn't handle the time well....
im very afraid that she might be too stressed....
i called her & had a talk wif her.....
eventually.....we ARE going to perform!! =>
Today....24th sep (sun)....the 4 of us started practising....
initially, everything was ok....
but then when i heard this song...."热带雨林".....
it was Jia's fav song last time.....& she always love to sing it....
when i was singing....i was tearing at the same time...
suddenly thought of those days when we were together arguing, practising, dancing, playing afool....those were the days....only to be kept in our memories....perhaps...it can nv come into real life anymore...perhaps....
i couldn't stop crying....i dunno Y....
suddenly....everything seem so quiet....without her non-sense, her irritating arguments, her unreasonable logic....everything seem so different...different....
we have all grown in a way or other....
we have all changed too...major changes.....
are we ever the same???
are we still the cheerful, playful, determined, courageous & noisy SHINE????
are we????
have we outgrown it? or have we forgotten who we really are.....
feeling hot @[3:03 PM]
"1st performance.....wif only 4 of us...."
typing this sentence alone, brought tears to my eyes...i couldn't stop 'raining'...
hearts were broken, eyes were flooded....we still have to continue our performance....no matter wat....
after recovering from all the 'injury' and pain....
we encouraged & motivate each other...to carry on the journey....
we'll have to press on...work even harder....to continue the dream that the 5 of us has created....
in our hearts...we were reluctant...but then we know that....she has her own stuffs to settle...it's her choice....n as friends....we shld support her....
but then....do the adults understand???
they only know how to say..."aiya...the 4 of u like that oso very nice....even much nicer lor..."
do we really want it this way? OF COURSE NOT!
it's not whether its nice anot...it's the bond, the relationship the 5 of us has cultivated throughtout these years!
promises that we have made, lessons that we've learnt together....we grew up together....the experiences, the turning points, the emotions....
nothing can ever replace those memories....
memories....
for now...SHINE...the past experiences of the full manpower of SHINE...has faded into memories....the 5 of us together...something we took for granted...could only be felt in our memories....
feeling hot @[2:49 PM]
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